2019…a much needed kick in the ass.
Just about every planet went into retrograde, Donald Trump just Donald Trump’d but got impeached!, and just about everyone on Twitter was stuck on some ex.
It’s the last week of the year and as we take some time off from school and work we’re bound to reflect on the year that we’re leaving behind. 2019 was a year of years; hell, it didn’t even feel like it was only one year. Just about every planet went into retrograde, Donald Trump just Donald Trump’d but got impeached!, and just about everyone on Twitter was stuck on some ex. This year was rough but as I reflect on the lessons I learned and experiences I gained through this year, I realized 2019 dragged me by my imitation Louis bag but this year was needed.
Most if not all of the internet could agree that 2019 was not the year we expected but definitely it was the year we needed. This year I dug deeper within myself than I ever have. I went through jobs like I do money and friends even quicker; I learned the best of me, the worst, and the parts that are better kept hidden. I completed none of the New Years’ resolutions I had set for myself but I did some pretty unexpected things… between launching and maintaining this blog and booking my first solo trip (stay tuned) I did a few things I definitely could be proud of.
I revamped my blog, several times too many, if you’ve been here from the start I appreciate you but there’s so much more to come. I traveled outside of the US for the first time without my parents ( not a big deal to many but definitely for me), I traded in a job I loved for more experience and while yeah it’s totally kicking my ass comfort isn’t always everything. I learned to begin to accept change, something I never thought I would be down for. I mean; I’m a Capricorn guys… everything needs to be under my control.
Now don’t get me wrong, my life definitely isn’t all sunshine and butterflies. I’ve experienced some of the worst tragedies this year; one of the biggest left me with the worst anxiety and PTSD beyond belief. Sometimes it can be really hard to not let the bad things get to you…it’s hard to pretend that everything is all right and this year I learned it’s okay to be honest not only with others but with yourself. It’s okay to admit when something is wrong and when you need help. While 2019 may not have been the year Trump was kicked out of office or the year all my student debt vanished ( two of the main things I want for Christmas) this year gave me way more than I could have imagined.
When we take steps back to look at the year that we had and hopefully the year ahead, we tend to focus on the worst of the past and have the most outrageous expectations for the future and that’s something we need to stop. 2019 definitely gave me a lot to look at. Of course, so many things happened this year and while not all of them were shiny and bright they were needed. However, the achievements I accomplished in these past 12 months definitely outweigh the failures. It gives me the courage to move forward each day despite the adversities; As we start putting the finishing touches on the plans we have for next year just remember to be reasonable, to praise yourself for all of your achievements no matter how minor they may be and of course to be kind to yourself now and in the months ahead.
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Happy Holidays ❄️⛄️🥂